Hello Demons, Meet Skeletons....

...hands hurt....pain coming from my back into my shoulders....makes them numb sometimes...

at night I wait for those arms to comfort me....to take my pain away...

...I see you waiting...I will join you....but not yet....


Take 95lbs on a barbell and just let loose...

I didn't measure or count this day (this past monday)

Hangclean: to fatiuge
Push-Press: to fatigue
Deadlift: to fatigue
Front Squat: to fatigue

I did what could be done with in 10 rounds or so...or about 45 mins worth no including stretching and push-up pyramids....

When being evaluated, I find it hard to believe that somehow that I passed this far...guess it is just a part of my personality to no trust too quickly and to not let my guard down too easily....

It is in this time of year that most of my reflection of the events in my life come up...during when I need the most focus and sleep...(both have been hard to come by lately)

Maybe I didn't hold on when I should...or perhaps I knew that I didn't measure up to what I wanted the most....
Playing memories in my mind...talking to those who no longer walk among the living...
...talking to those no longer walking with me....
...talking to those who have never come to pass...or never will....

Mentors have come and gone in my life...mostly be violent circumstances...learning how to be in this world...by way of hard methods...

I'll never let those I love know these feelings....
..never will they know hunger...
...never will they know cold...
...never will they not have a home to sleep in...
...they will have love in their lives...they will have a family....

maybe I'm just tired...
........

I do miss you....
everyday....and until you return.....I will stand guard....

Plyo step-ups: 4 rounds of 12/side
Incline Bench Press: 135lbs

Front Squat: 4 rounds of 5 reps
Deadlift: 135lbs

Versa Push-ups: 4x12
DB Squat: 70lbs